“In retrospect the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful.”

Last night I woke up at 3 in the morning convinced I would never run properly again. Can someone explain to me why everything seems 100 times worse in the dark? This morning after two large cups of coffee, some kid-filled laughter, and a great chat with a runner friend; all is back to normal….kinda. I am no longer hitting the panic button. I have better perspective now and am reminding myself that this is all part of the journey. This was never going to be an easy road to 2016, I knew that; this is just a bump in that road. I can use it as an opportunity to get stronger, face some fears, and correct some issues, or I can choose to let it frustrate and drag me down.

Where did this all begin? 9 days ago I was running an easy paced four miler when my back and right hip started to feel achey. I was almost finished the miles so I pressed on then the moment I stopped I felt a ton of pain and could barely walk. My entire hip/lower back area was in agony. Two off days later I saw my doctor who suspects a gluteal strain. X-rays came back clear and since x-rays can sometimes not show everything, I am scheduled for a bone scan on Monday to rule out any fracture. I am hesitant to even have the bone scan except the pressing back pain concerns me more than anything so I’d rather have solid answers than wonder how long I will be out. I am now walking fine and have been able to run a small distance pain-free but there is a ton of “wonkiness” that is definitely not right. Something is not firing correctly and my hip and back are randomly sore like they are irritated.

Where did I go wrong? What caused this? Honestly, I don’t know. I’ve been spot on with nutrition, recovery, and sleep. I did have a much higher number of days on the treadmill (due to kids home for snow days) than usual. I also had some slight IT band irritation in the left leg, so I suspect my right leg was over compensating. The combination of those two things may have been enough to cause an issue. I have been a very lucky runner in that I’ve only had one major injury in the last four years (when I tore my calf two years ago) so I do think I know my body well enough to run smart. This time though, there really was almost no warning. I’m not sure what I could have done differently.

Before this injury popped up I had high hopes for a half marathon this upcoming weekend. I believe I was (am?) fitter than ever so to let that go is incredibly frustrating. I’ve been venting away to three great friends (you know who you are) and probably emailed Coach Mark Hadley more than I should have; asking him questions only a psychic could answer. He is so patient! Nothing beats the feeling of running but I am fortunate I can cross train. I spent 90 minutes in the pool today and also have a bike I can use as long as my hip is not aggravated. So I’ll keep on doing what I can, with what I can, while I can, until fully healed.

Luckily the timing of a great weekend with family could not have been any better. Just when I needed some extra love to keep me laughing and my mind off of things my Mom and two sisters visited. It was fantastic. Brownies, Wine, Frozen Yogurt, Indoor Olympics, Beach time, and lots of laughs.

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Then Monday I got to hang out with Hollie (FueledbyLolz!) before she left Virginia for a few more weeks. Basically no running gives me a 100% return on a better social life.

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I hope that you are all training much better than I am right now. I’ll be sure to update everyone after I get the results back next week. Keep your fingers crossed for me that I’ll be back on the roads soon. Take care everyone!

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24 thoughts on ““In retrospect the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful.”

  1. I’m so sorry to hear about your injury and I hope you can get to the bottom of it soon. So glad your coach is patient and that you can cross train, so hopefully you won’t lose as much fitness. And, you have such a positive outlook which I admire. I think if I got injured and had these issues, I’d be freaking out… and I’m sure you’re pretty worried bc running is high on your priorities list, but at least you’re balanced and looking at it as a way to spend more time with friends and family and other things in life :).

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    • Thanks Amy. Yes, I am lucky to have a balanced life where I can tuck that running back in a corner and focus on other things as I heal. I miss it dearly already but reminding myself that soon enough I’ll be back to long runs!

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  2. Sorry to hear the new Kris ๐Ÿ˜ฆ I knew something was up when I didn’t see any recent posts from you. Sending you get well wishes and I know this will only make you stronger! Hang in there speedsta and I’ll run a mile for ya this weekend. Glad you got to see Hollie I started following her blog recently. Get well soon!!!

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  3. This is exactly how my back injury happened Dec 2012. One day out of the blue, bam! Mine was my lower back and high hamstring/groin but all the issues were from a herniated disc (L5/S1) –> nerves not firing properly –> muscles shut down –> strained adductor and high hamstring. If you want to chat about it if you think it would help.. you know how to get in touch with me!

    Hoping you get everything resolved asap!!

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  4. Hugs Kris! I know how miserable it is to not be able to run. I am glad that you are able to do other things and that hopefully will be running again soon. I am counting down the days until my cast comes off and I can get back at it too. ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope you get some definite answers – I think that is the very best thing you can do so you can have a clear rehab and recovery plan. Big hugs! Hang in there!!!

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  5. You haven’t lost any fitness. I am 100% convinced of that. I know it’s hard and stressful at this current time but I know in another week or so you will be back to running injury free and doing awesome at Shamrock!

    I am the same way that I would rather have concrete answers…whether that is bad o good. I would rather know how long I need to wait versus waking up daily questioning.

    I am so glad I got to see you before I left too.

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  6. So Sorry to hear this Kris, I know exactly what you mean about the nighttime worries! When I was dealing with my muscle strain two weeks before the Philly marathon I would wake up at night with the exact same thoughts. These things happen for a reason, your body is telling you something, and the world is telling you that it is time to slow down a little. Injuries are unfortunately part of running, but this may just be a minor one that puts things in perspective for you.

    I always appreciate my injuries after they happen….I am finally able to say that about the muscle strain before Philly. Even though it all came tumbling down in the race, I still ran a 2:49, and I know I was capable of faster, but now I have an extra drive, a grit that I didnt have before. I know in the long run (no pun intended :P) it will pay off. It will for you too!

    Even if this is somethign bigger, your strength will not go anywhere, it will bounce back much faster than it got to that level the first time, your body remembers what it is doing! Try to stay positive (I know that is easier to say than do), and do other things that arent running related ๐Ÿ™‚ I am here if you need me, just give me an email as I JUSt went through this, and I know how much it means to you!

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    • That means so much to me Tina! I do remember you struggling before Philly and you ended up running a fantastic time! I think the thing that upset me was that I didn’t really get that injuries are a part of running before. Now though I’ve had SO many people tell me about their stories that I have a much better perspective. Like, okay, this is not a big deal…I will heal and be back strong again. Thank you so much for your support. I’m going to live vicariously through your speedy training for a bit ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  7. Oh I am so crushed to hear this! Stay strong and positive and you’ll get through this. The fact that you can swim and maybe bike will be huge! It’s not the same as running but it is better than nothing and every little bit helps. I think this happened at a perfect time. Yes you have to miss a race but you get to enjoy time with family and friends instead.

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  8. Super bummed to hear you’re injured. I know the feeling all too well and hate not know exactly what’s wrong. On the bright(ish) side, at least it’s at the beginning of your 2016 journey and not toward the end. I’m sure you’ll bounce back- no pun intended- soon and be killing your workouts/races. In the mean time, seems like you’ve got the recipe for recovery down: brownies, wine, froyo, family and friends. Can’t beat that ๐Ÿ™‚

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  9. Ugh! I hate it when those dreaded injury things pop out of nowhere. And they always seem to be at the worst possible time, too.

    Your attitude is good- stay positive, rehab, etc. You are right in that all runners hit bumps in the road. Keep your chin up. You’ll be back stronger than ever soon.

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  10. Kris! So sorry to hear this but like everyone else is saying, I have confidence you will heal and bounce back quickly! I totally feel you on the night worries! So many things are more hopeless and depressing after dark! Read all these comments if you ever need to remember how awesome you are to so many people (even those of us who haven’t met you in person!)
    I know you are worried but you have a great attitude about the situation. Keep that chin up! I’m thinking of you!!

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  11. Oh man I feel for you, I have been training and also feel like I was in the best shape of my life and have a half this weekend and bam I was struck down with a foot injury. I dealt with SI joint pain for years and have found that consistent strength training, I do HiiT has stabilized my back and am running pain free for the 1st time in years.

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